Earlier this week one of my colleagues at ARCSHS passed away. He had been seriously ill for some time, but his death was still a surprise to us all. Although I wasn't particularly close with Anthony, I've been quite affected by his death - more so than I thought I would be - and I want to take a few moments to reflect upon what he meant to me.
I moved to Australia nearly 5 years ago to do my PhD. I didn't choose Australia for the sun or the beaches, I didn't choose Melbourne for the culture or the shopping. I came here because I wanted to be a part of a truly amazing organisation: The Australian Research Centre in Sex, Health and Society. It is because of Anthony Smith that ARCSHS exists.
Anthony and I didn't have a lot to do with each other; I know him more through his interactions with my friends than through my own interactions with him. Although ARCSHS has evolved into a lively, social centre, Anthony was well known for being something of a hermit, hiding out in his office whilst everyone else gathered for cake, only to appear at the last moment to snag a piece and disappear off again. Most of my interactions with him have been passing him as he had a smoke out the front of the building while I made my way into the office. It was a sad realisation when I came in this morning to know I won't be passing him by anymore; him looking away to avoid idle chitchat, me looking away to avoid being called out at rocking up to uni at 11am.
Another thing that Anthony was known for was his rather fearless ability to stand up for what he believed in and tell anyone stupid enough to stand in his way exactly where they could go! While I'd always known that side of him existed, it wasn't until last year when ARCSHS was faced with sever budget and staff cuts (due to the incompetence of people entirely outside of ARCSHS) that I actually saw him in action. For a man who was otherwise so quiet, when he was passionate about something, he sure could roar! I don't think I realised how much he really cared about all of us at ARCSHS until witnessing that showdown! It should come as no surprise that I admire a person who can not only call someone an idiot to their face, but go into painstaking details as to why they are an idiot, all whilst having abuse hurled back at them. I do enjoy the 'head on' approach to confrontation!!
The one professional interaction I did have with Anthony is something I will always remember, as it was a formative experience for me as an academic. I was just a year into my PhD and had to present and defend my research proposal to everyone at ARCSHS. After I'd finished my presentation and the floor was opened up for questions, Anthony came out swinging! It very well might have been the first time I'd ever heard him speak - certainly it was the first time he'd ever spoken to me. He was critical of my research design and although the experience was confrontational, I handled it professionally and took his criticisms as a challenge to push myself to do better. And I've been thankful for his criticisms every day since! Because of him I completely revised my research design and have produced an innovative piece of research that I am very proud of.
ARCSHS is a very supportive, non competitive environment. Although we all work across quite a wide range of fields and projects, we work together to strengthen each other. I've always felt like I can approach anyone here to bounce ideas off of - whether they are engaged with my work or not. And I have enjoyed having others approach me to do the same. We are all very lucky at ARCSHS; this is not the norm for academic environments. Academia involves people working really hard to put together their ideas and knowledge to present to others, for others to engage with critically. Even at its best, this experience can be quite confronting and feel like a personal attack. It's not a field for the faint of heart! Anthony's challenge to my work was the moment that I knew I could hack it as an academic.
Pretty much anyone who has had the opportunity to be a part of ARCSHS will tell you that it is much more than a work place; it's a community. And for many of us, it's family. My first couple of years here, I didn't know many people outside of ARCSHS. My friends and family were a long ways away, but whenever I came into ARCSHS I felt like I was at home. The people here, the culture of the centre, made me feel not like I'd left home, but like I'd come home. None of that would have been possible without Anthony Smith and I will always remember him for that.
Over the years I've slowly managed to coax Anthony in the occasional jovial interaction, as we passed each other in the stairwell, in the kitchen, or in the corridor. And last year I finally got to engage with him one-on-one! We were hosting our Christmas party in Flagstaff Gardens, and this involved transporting rather a lot of food and beverages from our office to the park - a short distance away. Somehow Anthony and I found ourselves co-carting an impressive array of salads over the bumpy terrain of Franklin St, across the chaos of William St, and through the twists and turns of Flagstaff Gardens. I don't remember what we talked about during this at most 5 minute voyage, but I do remember that I relished every moment of getting him to engage in a social situation that called for idle chitchat!
While it is very sad to lose someone who has made such incredible contributions to the fields of sexual health and sexuality studies more broadly, it is a privilege to be able to continue his legacy onwards. Every day I feel honoured and proud to be a part of ARCSHS. My thoughts and sympathies go out to Anthony's partner, family, friends, colleagues, and students.
